I have no right to feel this way, but I am disappointed. About a month ago our agency asked if we would be able to travel this week. Of course, we will travel any week. In the end, there was nothing to travel for. There wasn't a girl with our profile to travel to. Still, I can't help think how today was my day to see her. To share my love for her. To burn her scent into my brain. To plaster her face on my heart forever. Today, I had once hoped, would be the day.
There were no promises. I have no right to be sad or disappointed. I was told it would be a long wait to find her. Still, that doesn't help right now. What would help? A travel date & Hope that it will happen. Seeing others getting girl referrals on FRUA does help. It lets me know it isn't a lost cause. Every time someone travels I feel closer to having my turn to go.
I keep telling my self, she isn't ready. It isn't our time yet. All in God's time. His timing is always perfect. Let go and let him drive.
Honestly, I am a back seat driver. (ask Ian)
But tomorrow, I hope for. Tomorrow could be good news. Maybe Ondrea will have good news. Maybe St. Petersburg is where Mary Margaret is.
Maybe last Friday was someone else's day and we will all find out tomorrow.
Tomorrow...
2 comments:
God's timing is perfect, but the waiting is still very hard. Hope you hear something VERY soon.
It is so hard to sit back and wait, isn't it? Hopefully tomorrow will be a great day for someone! :-) I hope you are feeling better this afternoon. I'm right there with you!
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