2 days until lift off!!

Slowly my To Do list is shrinking.

I still need a long sleeve shirt, new sneakers and to return the bag we bought at Target. Publix only had one tube of our scabies cream, so we will go back tomorrow for the 2nd tube. We have little things to do around the house, like put chlorine in the pool and leave some checks the kids will need for activities. But, finally, the list is getting small.

Katrina called today wondering where my Deed was. I told her I never did it and she was exasperated. Then, I reminded her that she sent me my Dossier list in September of 07 and we had it all done in October. Back then, it wasn't requested. Apparently it, like the FBI prints, are on a new dossier list that I don't have. I got caught between an old list and a new one. I don't think they realize how long I have been waiting. Most of those who joined and were chasing papers with me got children in December. A few traveled in 08. But, I am most definitely the last one who hasn't received any referral.

Right now I am terrified that my husband and I are going to have differing opinions. Although he knows she will have some health issues, deep down, it is hard to consciously choose to bring a child with issues into your home. I just don't know that he will have peace about the decision. If we did this Ian style. We would meet every girl there, available now, or going to be available. Evaluate them all and make the "wise" choice. This is going to be SO tough on him.

Please pray for us. I know I keep asking for prayers, but lately I am in desperate need.

Please pray that Ian has a great peace about our decision. That the MOE gives us a very healthy referral on June 16,2008. Pray that she is totally disease free. No Hep. No TB. Not even scabies. Pray that she is disability free. Free from CP, FAS, autism, mental illness, and other life limiting conditions. That the medical history and file reflect her good health and that Ian feels confident and comfortable with the review of the contents. Pray that the doctors both find her to be very healthy and convey this to both of us with honest strong approvals. Pray that she can and does attach and bond with us. Remove any doubts that Ian may have about her being his daughter. Fill him with a love for her and confidence that she belongs in our family. Pray that she has a real connection with Ian. That she recognizes him. Goes to him. Talks and plays with him. May they have a strong bond from the beginning. May he miss her when we leave each afternoon and may he look forward to seeing her each day. May he think of her with a smile and love and longing in his heart. May we both recognize her as our daughter and agree that she is the one. May this experience bring us even closer together as we celebrate our 16 years of marriage.
Please also pray for our sons while we are gone. That they be safe and healthy. That God will watch over them and protect them. Pray that they make good choices and kind choices. Give my parents the strength and patience to care for them. Help them to be observant and wise. Give them all they need to keep my boys safe and healthy until our return. And, finally, pray that God protects my family from evil. Clearly, it is thriving on this opportunity and working hard to creep in and plant seeds. The doubts. The fears. May God's love and wisdome reign in our family and may he cast away all evil.

Ariana, your daddy and I are on our way. Please smile for him. Please go to him. Please love him and connect with him. Please recognize him as your daddy. Play with him and bond with him. Let him feel the joy he has playing with his sons so he can be comforted about being a daddy to a daughter.

I can't begin to express how much my support group means to me right now. God Bless each of those who have contributed and continue to support and carry us through our journey. A few can access this site, most can't. May my appreciation be known in their heart.