You know how sometimes a spiritual moment just sneaks up and BAM it hits you to the core?
Well, I had one of those today. I was watching Ariana take a bath (a favorite pastime, as she is part fish)... And, I looked out the picture window over our bath tub and into the conservation and I had this moment when I just got it very clear: I have everything I ever dreamed of.
It was such a calm and incredibly joyous moment all at the same time.
Absolute awareness that:
*I am married to my soul mate. Now, I am not going to elaborate for 3 reasons: 1) It will take far to long as he has way more good qualities than I have 2) Why tempt anyone? 3) He has been known to read this blog and a wise woman knows when to stay quiet.
* I have the most amazing sons. They are smart like their dad, determined like their mom, and gentle and kind like their grandmothers.
* I have the daughter that I have spoken of since I was 10. She smiles. She hugs me. She lets me dress her up (for now) and she has brought a sense of completion to me.
*I have supportive, dear friends near and far who have prayed for me and with me through the good and the bad. Who am to have deserved you all?
* My family is healthy.
* We make enough to be able to provide a blessed life for our children.
* I am so fortunate to have found my calling and my bliss as a teacher. We are blessed to have IDS as a home for our family, to have raised my sons with me, and to have become my extended family.
* You know what, Florida is frankly beautiful. If you like flowers, sun and green it is eye candy all year long here.
I am going to tie a ribbon around my wrist or something. Then when the world wants to suck me into some sort of negativity, I am going to look down and remind myself: Don't you dare waste one single second being anything other than joyous. You have it all!
Dear Lord, humbly I drop to my knees and give thanks for my amazing life. I am overwhelmed by your abundance and love. May each day of my life bring love and joy to others in your honor.
Thank you all for being blessings in my life. I pray that each one of you has a moment just like this in your life.
5 comments:
Michelle,
I wear a blue cord around my wrist. Why? Because about two years ago, I was in a Bible study where the leader (Beth Moore) said that we would all tie blue ribbon (mine was royal blue cording) around our wrists to signify the blue tassels God had asked Abraham to tie on himself to signify that he belonged to God. So, the idea was that this blue cord would remind us that we belong to the most high God and that 1)He is who He says He is. 2) He can do what he says He can do. 3) I am who God says I am. 4) I can do all things through Him. Anyway, my cording is no longer royal blue. It's mostly gray with alot of fraying, some random blue strings sticking out here and there, but I wear it because it reminds me to believe that God can do what He says he can and I am who He made me! :) So maybe when I send you the shoes, I'll include a blue piece of cording.
I love you, sister!
By the way, I was twisting that blue cording like nobodies business throughout our court hearing... in my memory of court forever will be me spinning tht blue cord around my wrist. :)
I love your post. I feel exactly the same!
I just discovered your blog and wanted to chime in too. I too love your post and feel the same way!
Michelle - beautiful, moving post as always! I love the idea of wearing a cord on my wrist to remind me of the exact same things you spoke of. I've had a VERY ROUGH 3-4 weeks here & was dangerously close to letting all that negativity suck me in & consume me. Had I had the cord to remind me, perhaps I wouldn't have let things effect me as much as they did. Thanks for sharing such positive images with us!
Karyn
Hi Michelle, I just love reading the progress you have made with that beautiful little girl. Amen to the "I have everything that I ever really wanted"! Yes, indeed. I don't miss the trips at all, but I do miss being able to talk to you in person and see you on Arbat. Maybe, another time, another place! If you want to see some beautiful fall foliage, I just noticed tonight that the leaves are beginning to change here in east Tennessee. Don't drive up, though, gas shortage! Miss you.
Jana
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